friends forever!

so this week has been quite interesting. i guess you can say i had a change of heart, and im glad things have become the way they are now.. im glad i know that ill still have him as a friend, because thats what mattered the most to me, our friendship! cool beans! :) so im super excited for things to come though, it just seems like something out there is ready for me, like the workd of UTAH!! :) hahaha... im going to CONFRENCE again! im soo excited! im gonna try and make it every single time! im not being selfish, im taking advantage of an AMAZING opportunity! sitting in the confrence center was the COOLEST experience ever. Pretty modern way of the times of Christ when he spoke, would be this amazingness!! i love Utah, i hear it might snow, which would be super cool! but at the same time, ican go for some sunshine! :)

these past few months have been rollercoastered in my heart, and im so glad to move forward with certain feelings, and im glad that HF has a plan for me. It has helped me all along, even if i knew i didnt want this to happen a few months ago, it has, so i must get over it and move forward, which surprizingly is much easier than i thought it would me.. i guess HF wouldnt council us on wise decisions if he didnt think it was for the better right? right :) okay. love you all :)

-Mayra

taken aback.

it's been two whole years
since you and I shared fears
two thirty am
talking till sleep inside that diner
and now in your eyes I can't find you


sorry that I'm taken aback
but how I am you never ask
and I don't need such sympathy
but a care would be so woah woah
nice to have once in a while
you mean more to me than I could ever tell
so sorry that I'm taken aback
but I just can't help it

small tale be just right
holding onto what we have inside
but now it's never there but should I admit
do I believe that I too am the culprit
and in your eyes I can't find you

sorry that I'm taken aback
but how I am you never ask
and I don't need such sympathy
but a care would be so woah woah
nice to have once in a while
you mean more to me than I could ever tell
so sorry that I'm taken aback
but I just can't help it

someday this will go away
and eveything I am will just leave and fade
and I hope then you will understand
it's not everything I am my dear only friend

so sorry that I'm taken aback
but how I am you never ask
and I don't need such sympathy
but a care would be so woah woah
nice to have once in a while
you mean more to me than I could ever tell
so sorry that I'm taken aback
but I just can't help it
oooooo oh oh
oooooo oh oh woah

oooooo oh oh
oooooo oh oh woah

things change,and ill be better over time. its just hard at the beginning of things.im single, selfless and ready to serve..so if you needme, i have time.. i have all the time in the world...

<3

puppies, a sick dog and more...

Biscuit, my dog, had her puppies yesterday. She gave birth to 3 puppies, one of which was born dead. I'm pretty sure she had major complications because her stomach was as hard as a rock this morning. We took her to the vet only to find out that she still had a puppy in her stomach, she was in so much pain it was rediculous. We couldnt afford the procedure, so we brought her home and she gave birth to the dead puppy, it was so sad, she was really sick and upset after. Alyssa (THANK YOU) came over and fed the puppies while I got ready for work. but my awesome neighbor took really good care of them while i was working, then when my parents came home they gave her penicillin which helped a ton! :) It was a long day, and really sketchy, i didnt like the vibe of it at all, but i did good at work, made our nightly numbers which was amazing! life is grand outside of small stressors, Justin and I are happy, and thats really all that matters :) well, heres the puppies.. hope you think theyre awesome.. we have yet to name them, theyre both girls... chloe is cute.. too close to zoe thougH...

Fire Season :(

life is just GOOOOD.. ive been out and about a little more with friends lately! It's been

such a good learning experience for me, in my relationship, bc i feel like i can miss him more,

and we have so much more to catch up on when we see each other! it's amazing! i love him, and I

dont exactly love missing him, but it makes me realize how important he is to me in my life..

I went Rollerskating with Sean and Jill and a few other aWESOME people this weekend..heres

some way rad pictures of Saturday nIGHT!

newlyweds, toosh grabbin.

the entire posse!

sillly faces

wanna race???

Holy Man! LA is on Fire! this past saturday, some fires broke out in the LA National forrest, but instead of being behind the Mountain backdrop, it was on the south side of the mountains! I was driving down the 605 in Long beach and you can s

ee the flames from the fires, as if it were only 5 miles away! So crazy! I guess the Flames got up to 80 ft! holy maccaronni!here's some pictures ive taken off LA times, or taken myself... its so sketchY!

definitely not so good!

Hello Fireman!

Future Justin of America :)

Yikes!

super cool, NOT!

well that's how bad california has looked lately..

kiss kiss...BIG KISS!!! <3>

new things are happening..

man can life just stress you out sometimes, its rediculous. I think this summer turned out to be something i didnt think it would be, full of work :( i didnt have as many long Car rides down PCH at 1 pm, i didnt go to the beach as often as i hoped to, i didnt ride my bike along the coast, okay, i lie, i went once.. i fell out of loops, i lost friends, i became stress. and man, do i HATE stress.. i cant live like this, i really cant! sometimes i feel so alone, like im the only one seeing things the way they are; im wrong obviously. so many things happened this summer, and i wanted to be a part of every single one of them. thats, of course, impossible. But i blamed it on one thing, and i cant blame it on that all the time, because its my fault too... done with that rant..

Kings of Leon are so soothing in such a different way. I guess its because it reminds me of times of old, times of sitting in a Ranger, driving down Clark, listening to Justin sing his lungs out to them. Of course he's still singing these tunes, but i dont get to enjoy them as often anymore. so these past few weeks have been rather interesting. I went to San Diego 2 weekends in a row, meanwhile Justin was in Mexico City, visiting his mission. Went with my friend Alyssa. The first weekend was seriously such a good time! the second weekend was rather bust than fun. But church time was way rad! met some San Diego cool kids :) it was fun! Ryan was way rad for letting us crash at his house and crash his parties for a minute.. no c-blocking for sure...hahah.. but here are some of my favorite pictures of down there... subtitled stories too...

sleepy in a burrito

ysa confrence
i miss you kiss kiss.
stranded..literally.

neon tree's (very awesome band)

with Ryan and Mitch at Rock-a-thon
Alyssa and I

there's a few, im pretty bad at posting on this thing.. well, today i went to the relief society dinner, caught up with some people, and got to know some others! i love socializing so much! i wish thats all i had to do sometimes, to be well off! haha.. just hang out and make people happy and stuff... at least thats my goal in life.. but i know there's certain people out there that can never be pleased, no matter what...

i really miss something, i dont know what it is, but i miss it... and i miss it a lot. i feel like something is misssing lately, and i think i know what i can be, but i swear i thought its been there through all of this throughtout the time.. i dont know, but a lot of praying will be done within the next few days, to figure out what's going on, so i can fix it..

i love you all... have a great night..

a new beginning.

Howdy Rowdy Crowdy! :) so here i am, i havent posted a blog in a long time. Things havent really changed, my mother is out of the hospital, she's actually in Las Vegas right now, how exciting. I made my quota this month, thanks a lot to the wonderful people i work with for helping me! Justin and I, still going on! Yup yup yup! Sean and Jill got married!! Im so happy that they were that happy, man, someday ill have my turn! until then, im gonna take my time with things! Ive been pretty crabby lately, im not sure what is causing it, but sometimes im just like, blah. like i need to spice things up a bit more. I havent been dancing in what seems like wayyy too long, thank goodness there's something spectacular going on this next week!The YSA Confrence is this next week, there's also this event called Hard Summer going on, its like a huge huge huge dance party with all sorts of amazing kinds of dancing going on! Im sad that Sean and all of the amazing people i used to once dance with will no longer be able to. Sean starts Dental school in a month, for a whole 3 years! its gonna be intense, and being married is gonna be fun for them though!Theyre so sillY! so work is good, im honestly kind of ready for a new adventure. I dont really like feeling sooo pressured to make sales goals during a sucky economy! it really sucks!

So next week Justin is going to Mexico, FOR A WHOLE WEEK! friday through NEXT sunday! what the heck am i gonna do? Have the time of my life thats for sure :) hahahah..jk... im gonna miss him for sure, he's

like my bff! He's so silly, he bought this new UFC Fighting game and its actually really fun! I wrote David Witt yesterday, i miss that kid. Seriously, i honestly have misplaced all of my friends out in the far ends of the earth. Vanessa and Ty are all up in Utah, Davids in Louisianna, Sean and Jill are gonna be living in Pasadena now, and Alyssa is in Canada. I need more local friends, its rediculous! Well, im off to bed. Have a great nighT!

HOWDY!!! oh goodness i havent been on this thing in forever! I guess i treat this as a Journal than an actual "blog." Well so much has happened in the last few weeks, ive had some pretty crazy things go on in my life that have stressed me out pretty badly, but thankfully, im good! Well work has become a lot easier recently! i no longer feel like i constantly need to reassure myself of what im doing because ive done it a dozen times already and i'm getting comfortable and better at it! :) It makes me really happy to see that things are finally starting to work out at my job, i honestly enjoy it a lot now, opposed to when i first got the new manager position and was screwing up left and right! that, was not cool AT ALL! :( but now, with the help of my amazing manager, ive got it all under control!:) except for the lack of people actually coming into our stores lately, this recession is beginning to hit the home front! And I dont like it! :( 

Well, theres more stuff that has happened, my mother dearest was in the hospital for a whole 2 days last week, it was pretty bad! So a few weeks ago, i guess my momma started feeling somewhat faint and stuff at work.She works as a postal carrier, delivering mail and stuff, so you can see how that sort of job can be strenious on a 53 yr old woman. Well, one day, it got pretty bad so she went to the doctors and found out she had high blood pressure. She needed to take a few days off to rest and feel better, but better didnt come. So last wednesday, she THOUGHT she had an appointment with the cardiologist BUT she didnt, feeling sick still, she decided to go to the doctors so that they can see whats going on. While she was going up to the doctors, she started to feel pressure on her chest and the doctor read her BPM and it was at a whopping 200! Usually, your BPM are like 90-100 relaxing and can get to 180 + per exercising, but my mom was sitting down. She dosed off a little and somewhat fainted so they called the paremedics and she stayed in observation for a WHOLE 2 DAYS :( she's all better now, she even went to the cardiologist today, and they told her she was fine, just something that can occur when your arteries are a little clogged up, so they gave her a ton of medicine she has to take from now on, phew! thanks for all the prayers sent out though, they definitely work!! :) 

  Justin and I are still strong! :) its been ALMOST 6 whole months! this is my longest relationship yet, and im so in Love with this kid! :) he completes me for sure! :) we went to an 80's Prom on saturday night out in Laguna! it was fun!!Our Friends Kaci and Chris got engaged that day! her ring is rediculous! I keep joking with justin about what are baby's names are gonna be... Dane Jer Asendorf :) hahaha... wouldnt that be hilarious...i guess its hit that time in the relationship where you kind of start to wonder if this is the person you are gonna marry, or if these past few months have been fun, but nothing has come out of it. I think we both mutually agree that it would work, if marriage is next, then we're getting there someday, but we're enjoying the trip, not speeding at all, if anything, we're in the slow lane stuck behind the big rig but we're gonna get there someday...like he say's "hopefully." I guess its different

 when you come from a situation like his, where marriage was already in the works, but the relationship was doomed for failure...we've surpassed the hurdle of "arguing and fighting" we never fight, we 

get frustrated and may argue a bit, but we always always communicate our feelings, and i honestly think that's what keeps us so strong! His twinsie is coming down from Utah next week. Im sooo excited for all the fun adventures that are headed our way next week, his sister in law kim is hilarious, and we all had a BLAST in Utah so, im hoping for that same energy, Plus we have so much in store for them is redunkulous! :) 

Well, im dang tired..im going to bed!!

<3mayra