let the new year begin...

this year was fun, a lot of time spent developing my personal relationships, friendships and overall social abilities... haha... ive learned a lot from different people this year, and im really greatful for it. I fell in love, i fell out of love, i gained friends, i lost one, but this year taught me A LOT. It taught me that through all of the circumstances we face in life, we still have hope for a new day, a new month, a new year, a new something! Although heartbreak hit this year, so did every other emotion in the book, OVERWHELMING happiness, unforgetable laugher, the feeling of new friends, new interests, new things. Im greatful for my HF, and the amazing plan he designed that keeps each person safe! I'm soooo greatful for this year, because without the things that happened in 2009, i wouldnt have grown like i did...

I really hope to get fit this next year, i know i lost a few pounds this year, but i want to be FIT. i want to work out more, i want to be healthier...

i dont really know what im hoping for in 2010, but its a new beginning,

so whatever the wind blows my way, i'll greet with open arms, as long as it's something that will make my life happier and full of more fun!!

Happy new year!

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dwindling in the moonlight.

Fear not to do good my sons,

for whatsoever ye sow

that shall ye also reap.

therefore

if ye sow good

ye shall also reap good for your reward

Therefore

fear not

little flock

do good

let earth and hell combine against you

for if ye are built upon my rock

they cannot prevail.

D&C 6:33-34

may your heart be open to the love that Jesus has for you, no matter what life may bring you.

Theres always hope, even if its only small hope, its presence is always there.

:)

have a beautiful day.

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fixed.

fixed

on your smile

fixed

on your lips

fixed

on your random laughter

fixed

on your essence

fixed

on your presence

fixed

on your silly face

fixed

on my hearts embrace.

its a new way to ride,

and im digging every second of it.

i like you.

just a little bit more than average.

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downer.

sadness.

it fills your soul sometimes.

things arent as easy as you wish they would be

no one seems to really listen anymore

just pretending.

colors.

the sunset brings the darkness

but on the way there, the sky is filled with colors

this world is different

just like the colors of the sky.

people.

they dont trully listen

they just say what they want to hear

they conform

they become you because they want to be you

its never original to steal

specially the colorful personality of a friend

coverup.

like make up but you know its just temporary

things go back to the way they were before

when no one else is there to see u remove it

but me

glisten.

show your true colors when you are really YOU

downer poem.during downer times.

ill be the one to show you the way...

so life has just been a big balloon of FUN! :) things are just going really good with work and school! im getting really good grades in both my classes, at work, i could be doing a little better, but im working my behind off. literally. ive lost a little weight (i think) ive been out and about every day, dancing, roaming the streets of LBC listening to some amazing music.going to shows, making new friends, discovering hot new boys (that i cant have) hahah... but i can dream.

so i think im gonna go for it and apply for byu summer session. honestly i feel like i should be up in utah for some reason.. maybe to find my ec, maybe to live in surroundings of a bunch of lds folK or something. we'll see though, it all depends on what my HF wants. well, life is grAnd, things couldnt be better right now, im stuck in a "good routine" that i really like. no boy drama, or stressors in life, so im just gonna chill and have a blast with life :) justin and i are still cool friends, which rocks, bc he was my friend before, so im glad we kept the friendship after. yay! well... its late, i should be asleep. so i will be in 5 minutes...

here's my mini spiritual moment of the day.

remember that "God always provides safety for the soul"so you're set no matter what happens in life....

and thats because we have the savior in our lives. no matter what we're going through, we are all in a wonderful situation.nothing can bring us down, we are on a divine path thats leading us to glory and goodness as long as we live the gospel of Jesus Christ....

i love you guys. and i hope your life is blessed with goodness and happiness.

:) have a great night.

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utah Pictures...

here are some pictures from utah, not in decending order, if anything, its the ending to the beginning... enjoy!

sad day.. farewell ryAn.

my favorite..
Tabernacle! :)
we went to the OTHER side :)
chEESE
loved everY second of it!
confrence.rain or shine!
tired at 2 am..
my NEW SHOES!
FOLKY! :) :) :) :)
this is robroy!
typical!
jiggabojangles..he's our newest fRiend!
DJ Ryan D.this kid rocks!
a. wallll m.dEEE
grass roots!
hey whats up!
pit stop!
hahahhahaha...
goood hair for 4 am!
utah was a BLAST! i cannot wait to go again! im sure it will be sooner that we go, so im super stoaked!! have a great nigHHT!

woAh utaH!

oh goodness... so utah was a flippin BLAST! :) we set out to the state of ootah at 4 am! Robbie, alyssA and i were super stoaked to head out! i literally ran outside, ready and set for the glorious roadtrip we had ahead of us! so we drove into the day, it was super dark at first --"its like driving at night time"--hahah.. before we knew it, we were at stateline and were so ready to ride the supercoaster at buffalo bills, BUT it was only 9 am and the rollercoaster was closed..booo hoooo hooo.. so we headed to VEGAS! we drove down the strip.. then headed to UTAH!! before we knew it.. we were in ST GEORGE! we pit stopped for lunch at no where else but CAFE RIO!mmmhmmm..we got some sweet service from this man Aaron, definitely made our day! so then..the 4 hr drive to PTOWN!! we passed by the Y up on the mountain hills, got to Highland where alyssa's awesome fam bam was letting us crash at and chillared for the night! (sorry for my vocab, its somethin else).. anywho.. chilled at home that night, walked the dog, caught up with family and just had an amazing time! Friday came and went too fast! we went out to BYU and walked the campus! we met up with ELDER FRALEY! wooop woop ! he and his gf took us all around byu and stuff, it was so nice! im applying for the summer session, im pretty stoaked! we'll see though.. anywho.. met up with the amazing RYan DeNNy! wat wat! then partied all night.. i guess i can just post the pictures bc this is already long and its only friday, so ill caption all the pictures k! :) enjoy!! loves loves loves!!

:)