Six.

Life is so pleasant, even when things are difficult

when things don't go your way, you learn that

the most important thing is the people who

love being by your side.

I couldn't be happier,

finally a love that is unconditional

finally a love that can last forever

finally someone worth getting through the fights for

finally someone to call MINE.

Today marks six months since Mona and I started dating, which is really exciting! So much has happened in these six months, so much to grow from, so much knowledge and so much adventure!

I love how he looks at me, I love how he knows when something is wrong, I LOVE how he loves me, I love how i can look like a hot mess and he smiles, and says i look beautiful. Since day 1, we've been the biggest cheeseballs, but since day 1, he's had my heart. I'm looking forward to the next few months and what comes our way, what obstacles we'll face, what happiness will bring, what adventures we will take, what risks we'll be taking.

This weekend was one much needed, Thursday, we spent all day together, I got my hair cut and then we went and saw 50/50 which was a pretty great movie! Friday, he got off work early and surprized me at home so we went and danced at El Dorado's dance. Its so much fun being on the dancefloor with that boy, its like nothing else matters... really.

Saturday we went and did laundry together, lol, we're trying to be "grown ups" but it was nice to sit and just conversate with him. I swear when we get married we're going to be that newspaper couple, sipping on some OJ reading about the 99% of the population being broke arses. I find it cute, but he always makes conversation so easy, even if we disagree, its so easy just to talk. After laundry we went to mama's sushi where i tried ALBACORE for the first time, now let me tell you, flavorgasm. That was a good meal though, after that we went over to his aunty and uncles house for a bbq, his cousin Justin who plays for Notre Dame came into town so we went and just chilled with his family. Its nice to be welcomed like they do, they're really nice! I always tell him that when we have a family I want us to have the samoan family bond like his family does. I mean, mexican families are way close too, but not like his family seems to be. Anywho, that was fun, we talked about the gospel with his other cousin for a few hours actually, that was probably the best part of the night, sitting with Mona and talking about how people are around the world and how Jesus Christ affects their lives in such a positive way when they are open and willing to listen to a message of Christ. After that we went home and fell asleep, I was pretty exhausted.

Sunday came and we headed to El Dorado, and for the first time in a really long time, we made it to church on time! :) you think girls take forever to get ready, meet my Bf, omg... lol. anywho. Church was great, the talks were great. It was so nice to be back at church. I've been working every sunday for the past 2 months so its been REALLY hard to get to church and really take advantage of the blessing of the sabbath. Ironically, we had to leave early to head over to Lomita and get my nephew Alex so we could head to the LA Galaxy Game vs. Chivas USA. It was fun, Alex was able to run around the field before the game started so it was great to see that! The game was great, Galaxy took the victory. I was exhausted after so we went back to mona's and watched Apocalypto on Netflix. That movie is crazy! I fell asleep in loving arms and thats how my sunday ended.

Today was a good one too, Today is our actual 6 month anniversary and we went to Zavalas for some tacos for lunch. I dropped him off at work, which is always the saddest thing, I swear I could be with this boy 24/7 without getting "sick of him" haha. Maybe he does, but I sure don't!

Anywho, things are so good! I have an interview with Pepsi Co. for a customer service rep tomorrow at 1 so i'm really HOPING and PRAYING that I get this job. It's $1 more than I currently make and 1/2 way closer than I work now! Pray for me please! School is alright, I need to focus because i'm definitely being a slacker ( I should be doing HW at this current moment) lol. Family is doing great, things are just at a good place right now! I know things will only get better with time, I can feel it! I'm ready for any challenge that comes my way!

With that,

keep smiling!

Chao!

love you. just the way you are.

I could watch you for a lifetime
You’re my favourite movie
A thousand endings
You mean everything to me
I never know what’s coming
Forever fascinated
Hope you don’t stop running
To me cause I’ll always be waiting

You are A cinema I could watch you forever
Action Thriller I could watch you forever
You are A Cinema A Hollywood treasure
Love you Just the way you are
A Cinema A Cinema A Cinema
A Cinema A Cinema A Cinema

Stars spell out your name
Like in a science fiction drama
Romance roll in
Like a flower in the summer
You always keep me guessing
Forever my wonder
Hope you start undressing
All my dreams until the end of

You are A cinema I could watch you forever
Action Thriller I could watch you forever
You are A Cinema A Hollywood treasure
Love you Just the way you are
A Cinema A Cinema A Cinema
A Cinema A Cinema A Cinema

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Reminescing

Things are so different today. so different than they were 4 months ago. I was looking back on old blogs and re-reading the horrible time I was having when I published them. It honestly makes me so depressed to rethink of the time that was Jan-March 2011. What hell. I couldn't be happier today. Life is getting so exciting lately, I have an amazing man in my life who just knows how to love me, and gives me all of the things I could ever want from someone. He's my everything. Lately, I feel like that grown up girl i wanted to become a few months ago. I'm way more secure than I've ever been, and I am definitely way more in Love with someone than i've ever been.

A few weeks ago, Mona got a job working with my brother in law at Puma out in Torrance, he was placed on Swing shift, meaning his hours are from 4:30PM to 3:00 AM Monday thru Saturday. I'm dying over here. As things continue to escalade in our relationship, our time together seems to get less and less. We actually went and looked at rings yesterday. WOW.WOW.WOW.crazy i know, sooo exciting, most definitely. This boy is mine forever! Well, i need a ring to finalize that statement first but, it's definitely the goal we are working towards!! FINALLY. someone who understands me, who loves me, even my imperfections and insecurities. He loves me through it all. Finally a boy who isn't here to play games, a man with real emotions and someone who is selfless and gives of himself for my happiness. FINALLY.

I remember having a dream about a man who would be the father to my baby a few months ago and getting this feeling during the dream about how much of a stranger he was but how i knew that i loved him: Mona,has had a crush on me for a while and i've always had an attraction to him, but i always thought he was someone who wouldnt be interested in someone like me. apparently im very wrong. to continue with the dream, my "husband" in this dream loves me and the baby unconditionally: mona always puts me first. i may get insecure at times and grow fear of what could happen and if things don't work out how much i would die instantely, but i relate this feeling to that dream because thats the love i remember feeling in that dream! It's kind of crazy to relate what is going on now to what i dreampt about that night, but it makes so much sense. He always puts me first, and that's all ive ever wanted, to actually and geniounly be loved by someone who i love. to have true and real love, and i've found it.

I'm sooo thankful for standing in holy places, for following the spirit and for joining the LDS church. I'm no where near perfect, and i know perfection could never fully be reached but I do know that I am so happy now, knowing that life is the way it is because of the choice i made 3 years ago, to become a MORMON. to live like Heavenly Father would want me to live and to be closer to my savior. None of this wouldve happened if I weren't a member of this church, and i'm so thankful I made THAT giant leap and made THAT decision.

keep looking up :)

Mayra D.

eres la luz de mi vida...

im a rapper sometimes...

::

Baby boy you my evrythang

cant believe you got me this diamond ring...

you everythang i been wishin for

got me fiening n i want some more...

eres todo lo que quiero,

para siempre

eres todo lo que quiero,

para siempre

eres todo lo que quiero...

nunca me dejes.

ay que guapo.

mi amor.

para siempre...

<3

Because i love him...

oh yes i sure do...

here he is, the man i love. the one that consumes all of my time, the one i cannot get sick of, okay sometimes, lol. the one i argue with. the one i cry with.the one i cuddle with.the one that i wanna be with for ever... yes. deep.don't judge me, i just know. :) i love this boy. a feeling like this hasn't entered my body since i joined the church.anywho, he deserves every second of your undivided attention right now, because, i say so. jk. lol. i love this boy. he's everything i could ever ask for. he's showing me so much of his soul and letting me grow with him. i love everything about him. he's just too good to be true... yea yea, sappy little love blogger now huh, but hey, so what!:) lol. i'm in love, and i'm not afraid to say it. i want to marry this boy. yea, i do. so what! :)

fin.

He is..

everything i could ever ask for...

everything i could ever dream of...

the person that makes me want to be everything i've ever dreamed of....

the person i want to make better, i want to be like...

he is everything i've been waiting for..

lets just hope that its all in HIS will to work out...

life couldn't be better..

<3

We've hit turbulence...

and im one shaken little girl.

tonight, he broke me. completely.

it was the final cherry on the ever so building snow cone waiting to tip.

and he placed it.

things could be worse.

and i hope they don't get any worse.

it just so happens to trickle down sometimes.

this year started off "great"

new promotion.

new location.

more money..

one big happy mye mye...

what happened since then?

what has changed so significantly in my life that has drastically made my ever so happy temper slowly dull into a depressed little seventeen year old child..

i know where the problem lies.. just need to fix it and remember that trials will come.. and that's when we need to turn to him the most.

I can't do this on my own. and i think ive been neglecting the help i know i have way too much lately. I need to remember that he is always there. he is ALWAYS going to love me, even when the guy i wish wanted me dates someone else.. HF will ALWAYS love me. no matter what.

Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me.<3 i am like a seventeen year old at thismoment in my life. so i feel like i am. i am hurt, stressed and have too much to think about that my emotions take over.. i hate it...

so i dedicate this song to me..