Wednesday, November 9, 2011

New Beginnings...

I'm pretty exhausted, but i'm forcing myself to write this down, even if no one ever reads this, I HAVE TO TELL THIS STORY! Or atlease write it down to remember all the details, It's pretty long but I promise it is pretty funny at the end... or atleast I think so..


A few months ago I applied for a teller position with Wells Fargo, probably about 3 months ago. I went through the first few interviews and passed the phone interviews, but i couldn't seem to get into an actual interview slot. I was messing up on a lot of things during that time, I wasn't really going to church (not by choice) but because I was being scheduled to work from 1 to 10 every sunday. I had even put in my 2 week notice but because i had no job to secure me financially, i took it all back. Our store ended up doing horribly for inventory, My store manager quit and to top it all off, one of our Assistant managers got injured and never came back. It was all me to fend for the store until our new store manager would come in from Arizona. A few horrendous corporate visits from our VP and DM made me realize how i could work a little harder and give a little more effort to make this better.

I looked at how i was living and how i was making excuses for EVERYTHING, I was sad all of the time, I just didn't understand why things didn't seem fair in anything that I did. Even Mona was getting it from me, I was just a mess. Then I looked at the bigger picture, What was missing? why was i so sad, so confuzed and so hopeless in all the things that were easily manageable. i'd done it before?Where had my faith gone? It was at that moment that I realized how much I was doing was wrong or just throwing a BIG pitty party. I was tired of having to work sundays, I was tired of messing up, I was tired of giving in to temptation. I was just tired of everything. So I said sorry, REALLY sorrry.

.. its really nice that during this time you have a very understanding boyfriend who will help you get through the hard times, even if we had our trials, we got through every one. He is my best friend and the one person who understands so much about me but at the same time can drive me NUTS :) i'm sure he feels the same way at times. But i love him so much, he is my world.

I prayed a lot, I talked to bishop and I cryed away all my fears and just stepped it up. In that next week, I got an email from Wells fargo to call for an appointment slot for a group interview, I had been in that process for about 2 months and all appointments were being filled up quick. That morning was different, THEY ACTUALLY HAD AN OPEN SLOT! I hadn't gotten my schedule at Windsor but i booked it for the coming week anyways. I was able to get the day off and go to my interview. There were 15 people, all eager as me to get this job. Only a few of us really stuck out and I left the interview feeling really good about my performance. About 2 weeks later I would get an email telling me that I had made it to my final interview process! YAY! Which would be Tuesday Nov. 8th at 1030 AM. It would be in Downtown LA, yes that big building in Dwntown. I was pretty excited to be heading into the city for a big girl interview. It felt really cool in all honesty.

MORNING OF... THIS IS WHERE IT GETS INTERESTING...
So I woke up and got ready for my interview, I made sure to pick out my outfit the night before, I was done doing that late stuff so i woke up and left my house at 915 to get to LA. I live like 30 minutes from downtown, NBD right? So Since It was a little early i figured getting an iced Chai to calm my nerves would be a good idea. I got on the 105 at 935, thinking it would be enough time, only to find myself sitting in morning traffic, WTH? I thought it ended at 9 am? WRONG. SO here i am, freaking out because I want to be IN the building by 1020. I jump on the 710N and thank goodness no traffic. I'm on the 5N in no time, 950ish and kaboom, TRAFFIC. Urg, so closeee! Traffic was HORRIBLE on the 5 to the 101 which is where i had to be, It took about 10 minutes to get to the 101 and from there I had to go to spring street which was ONLY 3 miles away, yea, that means 15 minutes in traffic. SO here i am, screaming freaking out because I'm like runnig late, i'm nervous, let the panic attack arive, just what i needed right? WRONG. So i get off on spring at 1020, head to the so called parking lot that the wells fargo recruter said would have a shuttle to get to the building. So they lied, it was 12 bucks, not ten, so i gave the guy all my change which was probably 1150 or so, give me a break. I ask about this so called shuttle, but he had no idea what I was talking about. At this point i was like F it i'll just walk. So I ask the guy where the wells fargo was at and he pointed me west, I kind of had a feeling of taking my flats to walk but I was like nah, i'll be good in my 4 inch heels.WRONG.
10 minutes until interview,
I walk down spring street only to find that he had pointed me towards ATM machines from wells fargo FML. SO i asked someone directions to the Wells Fargo tower, 4 blocks up 4th street... ???? WHAT! its 1023 now... so I decided to book it, I literally started running in my heels, BAD IDEA. I was good, then i feel a slight slip and hear a tear... "omg.. i'm falling i'm falling i'm falling shoooootttt... omg i'm goonna cryyyy" right in front of a sandwich shop where everyone was waiting for me to hit the ground, but i made it.. lol. I decided to take off my shoes and just RUN, So here i am, wearing a blazer, a cute top, a skirt, BAREFOOT in Downtown Los Angeles. I made sure to watch evvery step i took, no siringes, no gross stuff, just pavement... I found 4th street, went up 2 blocks and put my shoes back on, thinking it would be good from there, I was already late, it was 1030 on the dot. I crossed the street, only to find A HILL!!! A FREAKING HILL!! omg... KILL me.. this is the interview from HELL.. lol. So, I take of my shoes, because THERE IS JUST NO WAY, and i book it up there, mind you its like 70 plus
degrees at this point so i'm like sweating. I find a nice man who walked up to the Wells fargo tower
area and pointed me in the right direction. Of course I went to the wrong enterance and had to go all the way
around to FINALLY make it. it was 1040 AM. 10minutes late BUT thankgoodness they were running
late so it was nothing to them. I was ahot mess, and everyone else seemed to look ready and nice,
I was not happy. I got some water, cooled down and did my all.

Today, I found out I got the job. THANK YOU HF! All of that trouble and it all paid off,
I guess a rule of thumb is to ALWAYS prepare for traffic in LA, and NEVER wear 4 inch stilletos
to an interview.


The end.

<3


Monday, October 17, 2011

Six.





Life is so pleasant, even when things are difficult
when things don't go your way, you learn that
the most important thing is the people who
love being by your side.


I couldn't be happier,
finally a love that is unconditional
finally a love that can last forever
finally someone worth getting through the fights for
finally someone to call MINE.



Today marks six months since Mona and I started dating, which is really exciting! So much has happened in these six months, so much to grow from, so much knowledge and so much adventure!
I love how he looks at me, I love how he knows when something is wrong, I LOVE how he loves me, I love how i can look like a hot mess and he smiles, and says i look beautiful. Since day 1, we've been the biggest cheeseballs, but since day 1, he's had my heart. I'm looking forward to the next few months and what comes our way, what obstacles we'll face, what happiness will bring, what adventures we will take, what risks we'll be taking.

This weekend was one much needed, Thursday, we spent all day together, I got my hair cut and then we went and saw 50/50 which was a pretty great movie! Friday, he got off work early and surprized me at home so we went and danced at El Dorado's dance. Its so much fun being on the dancefloor with that boy, its like nothing else matters... really.

Saturday we went and did laundry together, lol, we're trying to be "grown ups" but it was nice to sit and just conversate with him. I swear when we get married we're going to be that newspaper couple, sipping on some OJ reading about the 99% of the population being broke arses. I find it cute, but he always makes conversation so easy, even if we disagree, its so easy just to talk. After laundry we went to mama's sushi where i tried ALBACORE for the first time, now let me tell you, flavorgasm. That was a good meal though, after that we went over to his aunty and uncles house for a bbq, his cousin Justin who plays for Notre Dame came into town so we went and just chilled with his family. Its nice to be welcomed like they do, they're really nice! I always tell him that when we have a family I want us to have the samoan family bond like his family does. I mean, mexican families are way close too, but not like his family seems to be. Anywho, that was fun, we talked about the gospel with his other cousin for a few hours actually, that was probably the best part of the night, sitting with Mona and talking about how people are around the world and how Jesus Christ affects their lives in such a positive way when they are open and willing to listen to a message of Christ. After that we went home and fell asleep, I was pretty exhausted.

Sunday came and we headed to El Dorado, and for the first time in a really long time, we made it to church on time! :) you think girls take forever to get ready, meet my Bf, omg... lol. anywho. Church was great, the talks were great. It was so nice to be back at church. I've been working every sunday for the past 2 months so its been REALLY hard to get to church and really take advantage of the blessing of the sabbath. Ironically, we had to leave early to head over to Lomita and get my nephew Alex so we could head to the LA Galaxy Game vs. Chivas USA. It was fun, Alex was able to run around the field before the game started so it was great to see that! The game was great, Galaxy took the victory. I was exhausted after so we went back to mona's and watched Apocalypto on Netflix. That movie is crazy! I fell asleep in loving arms and thats how my sunday ended.

Today was a good one too, Today is our actual 6 month anniversary and we went to Zavalas for some tacos for lunch. I dropped him off at work, which is always the saddest thing, I swear I could be with this boy 24/7 without getting "sick of him" haha. Maybe he does, but I sure don't!

Anywho, things are so good! I have an interview with Pepsi Co. for a customer service rep tomorrow at 1 so i'm really HOPING and PRAYING that I get this job. It's $1 more than I currently make and 1/2 way closer than I work now! Pray for me please! School is alright, I need to focus because i'm definitely being a slacker ( I should be doing HW at this current moment) lol. Family is doing great, things are just at a good place right now! I know things will only get better with time, I can feel it! I'm ready for any challenge that comes my way!


With that,

keep smiling!

Chao!

Thursday, July 28, 2011

love you. just the way you are.

I could watch you for a lifetime
You’re my favourite movie
A thousand endings
You mean everything to me
I never know what’s coming
Forever fascinated
Hope you don’t stop running
To me cause I’ll always be waiting

You are A cinema I could watch you forever
Action Thriller I could watch you forever
You are A Cinema A Hollywood treasure
Love you Just the way you are
A Cinema A Cinema A Cinema
A Cinema A Cinema A Cinema

Stars spell out your name
Like in a science fiction drama
Romance roll in
Like a flower in the summer
You always keep me guessing
Forever my wonder
Hope you start undressing
All my dreams until the end of

You are A cinema I could watch you forever
Action Thriller I could watch you forever
You are A Cinema A Hollywood treasure
Love you Just the way you are
A Cinema A Cinema A Cinema
A Cinema A Cinema A Cinema

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Never know what movie you’re playing
Never know what movie you’re playing
Never know what movie you’re playing
Never know never know never know

You are A cinema I could watch you forever
Action Thriller I could watch you forever
You are A Cinema A Hollywood treasure
Love you Just the way you are
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Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Reminescing

Things are so different today. so different than they were 4 months ago. I was looking back on old blogs and re-reading the horrible time I was having when I published them. It honestly makes me so depressed to rethink of the time that was Jan-March 2011. What hell. I couldn't be happier today. Life is getting so exciting lately, I have an amazing man in my life who just knows how to love me, and gives me all of the things I could ever want from someone. He's my everything. Lately, I feel like that grown up girl i wanted to become a few months ago. I'm way more secure than I've ever been, and I am definitely way more in Love with someone than i've ever been.

A few weeks ago, Mona got a job working with my brother in law at Puma out in Torrance, he was placed on Swing shift, meaning his hours are from 4:30PM to 3:00 AM Monday thru Saturday. I'm dying over here. As things continue to escalade in our relationship, our time together seems to get less and less. We actually went and looked at rings yesterday. WOW.WOW.WOW.crazy i know, sooo exciting, most definitely. This boy is mine forever! Well, i need a ring to finalize that statement first but, it's definitely the goal we are working towards!! FINALLY. someone who understands me, who loves me, even my imperfections and insecurities. He loves me through it all. Finally a boy who isn't here to play games, a man with real emotions and someone who is selfless and gives of himself for my happiness. FINALLY.

I remember having a dream about a man who would be the father to my baby a few months ago and getting this feeling during the dream about how much of a stranger he was but how i knew that i loved him: Mona,has had a crush on me for a while and i've always had an attraction to him, but i always thought he was someone who wouldnt be interested in someone like me. apparently im very wrong. to continue with the dream, my "husband" in this dream loves me and the baby unconditionally: mona always puts me first. i may get insecure at times and grow fear of what could happen and if things don't work out how much i would die instantely, but i relate this feeling to that dream because thats the love i remember feeling in that dream! It's kind of crazy to relate what is going on now to what i dreampt about that night, but it makes so much sense. He always puts me first, and that's all ive ever wanted, to actually and geniounly be loved by someone who i love. to have true and real love, and i've found it.


I'm sooo thankful for standing in holy places, for following the spirit and for joining the LDS church. I'm no where near perfect, and i know perfection could never fully be reached but I do know that I am so happy now, knowing that life is the way it is because of the choice i made 3 years ago, to become a MORMON. to live like Heavenly Father would want me to live and to be closer to my savior. None of this wouldve happened if I weren't a member of this church, and i'm so thankful I made THAT giant leap and made THAT decision.


keep looking up :)

Mayra D.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

eres la luz de mi vida...

im a rapper sometimes...



::
Baby boy you my evrythang
cant believe you got me this diamond ring...
you everythang i been wishin for
got me fiening n i want some more...

eres todo lo que quiero,
para siempre
eres todo lo que quiero,
para siempre
eres todo lo que quiero...
nunca me dejes.

ay que guapo.
mi amor.
para siempre...

<3

Friday, June 24, 2011

Because i love him...

oh yes i sure do...


here he is, the man i love. the one that consumes all of my time, the one i cannot get sick of, okay sometimes, lol. the one i argue with. the one i cry with.the one i cuddle with.the one that i wanna be with for ever... yes. deep.don't judge me, i just know. :) i love this boy. a feeling like this hasn't entered my body since i joined the church.anywho, he deserves every second of your undivided attention right now, because, i say so. jk. lol. i love this boy. he's everything i could ever ask for. he's showing me so much of his soul and letting me grow with him. i love everything about him. he's just too good to be true... yea yea, sappy little love blogger now huh, but hey, so what!:) lol. i'm in love, and i'm not afraid to say it. i want to marry this boy. yea, i do. so what! :)






fin.



Monday, May 16, 2011

He is..

everything i could ever ask for...


everything i could ever dream of...

the person that makes me want to be everything i've ever dreamed of....

the person i want to make better, i want to be like...


he is everything i've been waiting for..


lets just hope that its all in HIS will to work out...

life couldn't be better..


<3