The Blues....

My heart races too often, I know its because I can't help but feel certain ways about certain situatious, wether it be good or bad, Its a feeling, and those make my heart rush. Lately I've wanted one thing so badly, a beautiful being. As I stand here, feeling like the only one "left out" of this "club" of lucky people with blessings starting in wombs, I stand here with a heart racing,wishing i were part of those lucky ladies too. It has been 2 years, and not that we've been trying that entire time, just that we've wanted our own little blessing for the majority of that time. It is hard for me to think about, I can't help but feel a bit jealous when someone announces they are expecting, and here I am hoping it were me too. I know our time will come, and I just have to be patient, but I cant help but feel sad. I can't help but feel my heart race a little faster than it usually does. I really hope I can be a mom some day, its no race, I know i'll be so blessed when it happens, i just wish it were sooner than later in life. 

-Mayra