let the new year begin...

this year was fun, a lot of time spent developing my personal relationships, friendships and overall social abilities... haha... ive learned a lot from different people this year, and im really greatful for it. I fell in love, i fell out of love, i gained friends, i lost one, but this year taught me A LOT. It taught me that through all of the circumstances we face in life, we still have hope for a new day, a new month, a new year, a new something! Although heartbreak hit this year, so did every other emotion in the book, OVERWHELMING happiness, unforgetable laugher, the feeling of new friends, new interests, new things. Im greatful for my HF, and the amazing plan he designed that keeps each person safe! I'm soooo greatful for this year, because without the things that happened in 2009, i wouldnt have grown like i did...

I really hope to get fit this next year, i know i lost a few pounds this year, but i want to be FIT. i want to work out more, i want to be healthier...

i dont really know what im hoping for in 2010, but its a new beginning,

so whatever the wind blows my way, i'll greet with open arms, as long as it's something that will make my life happier and full of more fun!!

Happy new year!

<3>

dwindling in the moonlight.

Fear not to do good my sons,

for whatsoever ye sow

that shall ye also reap.

therefore

if ye sow good

ye shall also reap good for your reward

Therefore

fear not

little flock

do good

let earth and hell combine against you

for if ye are built upon my rock

they cannot prevail.

D&C 6:33-34

may your heart be open to the love that Jesus has for you, no matter what life may bring you.

Theres always hope, even if its only small hope, its presence is always there.

:)

have a beautiful day.

<3

fixed.

fixed

on your smile

fixed

on your lips

fixed

on your random laughter

fixed

on your essence

fixed

on your presence

fixed

on your silly face

fixed

on my hearts embrace.

its a new way to ride,

and im digging every second of it.

i like you.

just a little bit more than average.

<3

downer.

sadness.

it fills your soul sometimes.

things arent as easy as you wish they would be

no one seems to really listen anymore

just pretending.

colors.

the sunset brings the darkness

but on the way there, the sky is filled with colors

this world is different

just like the colors of the sky.

people.

they dont trully listen

they just say what they want to hear

they conform

they become you because they want to be you

its never original to steal

specially the colorful personality of a friend

coverup.

like make up but you know its just temporary

things go back to the way they were before

when no one else is there to see u remove it

but me

glisten.

show your true colors when you are really YOU

downer poem.during downer times.

ill be the one to show you the way...

so life has just been a big balloon of FUN! :) things are just going really good with work and school! im getting really good grades in both my classes, at work, i could be doing a little better, but im working my behind off. literally. ive lost a little weight (i think) ive been out and about every day, dancing, roaming the streets of LBC listening to some amazing music.going to shows, making new friends, discovering hot new boys (that i cant have) hahah... but i can dream.

so i think im gonna go for it and apply for byu summer session. honestly i feel like i should be up in utah for some reason.. maybe to find my ec, maybe to live in surroundings of a bunch of lds folK or something. we'll see though, it all depends on what my HF wants. well, life is grAnd, things couldnt be better right now, im stuck in a "good routine" that i really like. no boy drama, or stressors in life, so im just gonna chill and have a blast with life :) justin and i are still cool friends, which rocks, bc he was my friend before, so im glad we kept the friendship after. yay! well... its late, i should be asleep. so i will be in 5 minutes...

here's my mini spiritual moment of the day.

remember that "God always provides safety for the soul"so you're set no matter what happens in life....

and thats because we have the savior in our lives. no matter what we're going through, we are all in a wonderful situation.nothing can bring us down, we are on a divine path thats leading us to glory and goodness as long as we live the gospel of Jesus Christ....

i love you guys. and i hope your life is blessed with goodness and happiness.

:) have a great night.

<3>

utah Pictures...

here are some pictures from utah, not in decending order, if anything, its the ending to the beginning... enjoy!

sad day.. farewell ryAn.

my favorite..
Tabernacle! :)
we went to the OTHER side :)
chEESE
loved everY second of it!
confrence.rain or shine!
tired at 2 am..
my NEW SHOES!
FOLKY! :) :) :) :)
this is robroy!
typical!
jiggabojangles..he's our newest fRiend!
DJ Ryan D.this kid rocks!
a. wallll m.dEEE
grass roots!
hey whats up!
pit stop!
hahahhahaha...
goood hair for 4 am!
utah was a BLAST! i cannot wait to go again! im sure it will be sooner that we go, so im super stoaked!! have a great nigHHT!

woAh utaH!

oh goodness... so utah was a flippin BLAST! :) we set out to the state of ootah at 4 am! Robbie, alyssA and i were super stoaked to head out! i literally ran outside, ready and set for the glorious roadtrip we had ahead of us! so we drove into the day, it was super dark at first --"its like driving at night time"--hahah.. before we knew it, we were at stateline and were so ready to ride the supercoaster at buffalo bills, BUT it was only 9 am and the rollercoaster was closed..booo hoooo hooo.. so we headed to VEGAS! we drove down the strip.. then headed to UTAH!! before we knew it.. we were in ST GEORGE! we pit stopped for lunch at no where else but CAFE RIO!mmmhmmm..we got some sweet service from this man Aaron, definitely made our day! so then..the 4 hr drive to PTOWN!! we passed by the Y up on the mountain hills, got to Highland where alyssa's awesome fam bam was letting us crash at and chillared for the night! (sorry for my vocab, its somethin else).. anywho.. chilled at home that night, walked the dog, caught up with family and just had an amazing time! Friday came and went too fast! we went out to BYU and walked the campus! we met up with ELDER FRALEY! wooop woop ! he and his gf took us all around byu and stuff, it was so nice! im applying for the summer session, im pretty stoaked! we'll see though.. anywho.. met up with the amazing RYan DeNNy! wat wat! then partied all night.. i guess i can just post the pictures bc this is already long and its only friday, so ill caption all the pictures k! :) enjoy!! loves loves loves!!

:)

FORMULA DRIFT...

goodness gracious, right now would be the perfect time to find the perfect boy who would love to go spend a whole afternoon watching cars drift... im super stoaked and bummed all at once because on october 17th the formula drift finals are taking place...Not familiar with formula drift? check it out bellow! it will blow your mind! I guess i couuld buy the tickets and just ask someone to go with me.. or give it to someone for his birthday? and drag him along..hahaha... i just wannna see cars go super fast!! :)




thats some serious racing there... i REALLY WANNA GOOOO....gahhhh.... ! im going!

things to come...

So this past week was SUPER FUN! :) goodness i had a blast, i guess you can say it was a bittersweet with some extra sugar.. i feel bad for feeling so good about how things are going.. i hope that makes sense..but ive hung out with so many people ive neglected for a while and it felt good to finally catch up! made new friends, danced till i was tired! went to the temple :) prayed for council, moving to Utah soon? maybe.. thats what seems to be calling my name i guess... but im not sure yet. i gotta get school situated firsT! and pay off debt.. nani and i went on a fun bike ride around downtown bellflower friday night, it was sooo fun! we took our pups, Zoe and Lady. They're such troopers! i love doggies...the puppies are opening there eyes, soo stinking cute! :) well check out these pictures!

Thursday Temple day's!

finally on a real boat..but it never moved :(
cheeze snot...
these glasses suit me perfect!

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i FINALLY bought a Fedora..
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you can make the pathway bright...

You can make the pathway bright,
Fill the soul with heaven’s light,
If there’s sunshine in your heart;
Turning darkness into day,
As the shadows fly away,
If there’s sunshine in your heart today.


If there’s sunshine in your heart,
You can send a shining ray
That will turn the night to day;
And your cares will all depart,
If there’s sunshine in your heart today.

You can speak the gentle word
To the heart with anger stirred,
If there’s sunshine in your heart;
Tho it seems a little thing,
It will heaven’s blessings bring,
If there’s sunshine in your heart today.

You can do a kindly deed
To your neighbor in his need,
If there’s sunshine in your heart;
And his burden you will share
As you lift his load of care,
If there’s sunshine in your heart today.

You can live a happy life
In this world of toil and strife,
If there’s sunshine in your heart;
And your soul will glow with love
From the perfect Light above,
If there’s sunshine in your heart today.

i heard this song be sung in the most angelic and beautiful way ever possible back in april. i remember balling my eyes out because of the amazing spirit i felt that day, i didnt want to leave Utah, and im kind of scared, and excited to get that same feeling again this next time. I know it will be in different circumstances, but the spirit is the MOST BEAUTIFUL feeling i have ever felt in my entire life, i think that's when you know you love someone too,when the spiirit is THAT strong. i went with Justin last time, and i must admit, feeling in love and feeling that spirit was beautiful, but im sure that feeling will be exactly the same, because ill be with people i love. I just cant wait, i really really cant...

friends forever!

so this week has been quite interesting. i guess you can say i had a change of heart, and im glad things have become the way they are now.. im glad i know that ill still have him as a friend, because thats what mattered the most to me, our friendship! cool beans! :) so im super excited for things to come though, it just seems like something out there is ready for me, like the workd of UTAH!! :) hahaha... im going to CONFRENCE again! im soo excited! im gonna try and make it every single time! im not being selfish, im taking advantage of an AMAZING opportunity! sitting in the confrence center was the COOLEST experience ever. Pretty modern way of the times of Christ when he spoke, would be this amazingness!! i love Utah, i hear it might snow, which would be super cool! but at the same time, ican go for some sunshine! :)

these past few months have been rollercoastered in my heart, and im so glad to move forward with certain feelings, and im glad that HF has a plan for me. It has helped me all along, even if i knew i didnt want this to happen a few months ago, it has, so i must get over it and move forward, which surprizingly is much easier than i thought it would me.. i guess HF wouldnt council us on wise decisions if he didnt think it was for the better right? right :) okay. love you all :)

-Mayra

taken aback.

it's been two whole years
since you and I shared fears
two thirty am
talking till sleep inside that diner
and now in your eyes I can't find you


sorry that I'm taken aback
but how I am you never ask
and I don't need such sympathy
but a care would be so woah woah
nice to have once in a while
you mean more to me than I could ever tell
so sorry that I'm taken aback
but I just can't help it

small tale be just right
holding onto what we have inside
but now it's never there but should I admit
do I believe that I too am the culprit
and in your eyes I can't find you

sorry that I'm taken aback
but how I am you never ask
and I don't need such sympathy
but a care would be so woah woah
nice to have once in a while
you mean more to me than I could ever tell
so sorry that I'm taken aback
but I just can't help it

someday this will go away
and eveything I am will just leave and fade
and I hope then you will understand
it's not everything I am my dear only friend

so sorry that I'm taken aback
but how I am you never ask
and I don't need such sympathy
but a care would be so woah woah
nice to have once in a while
you mean more to me than I could ever tell
so sorry that I'm taken aback
but I just can't help it
oooooo oh oh
oooooo oh oh woah

oooooo oh oh
oooooo oh oh woah

things change,and ill be better over time. its just hard at the beginning of things.im single, selfless and ready to serve..so if you needme, i have time.. i have all the time in the world...

<3

puppies, a sick dog and more...

Biscuit, my dog, had her puppies yesterday. She gave birth to 3 puppies, one of which was born dead. I'm pretty sure she had major complications because her stomach was as hard as a rock this morning. We took her to the vet only to find out that she still had a puppy in her stomach, she was in so much pain it was rediculous. We couldnt afford the procedure, so we brought her home and she gave birth to the dead puppy, it was so sad, she was really sick and upset after. Alyssa (THANK YOU) came over and fed the puppies while I got ready for work. but my awesome neighbor took really good care of them while i was working, then when my parents came home they gave her penicillin which helped a ton! :) It was a long day, and really sketchy, i didnt like the vibe of it at all, but i did good at work, made our nightly numbers which was amazing! life is grand outside of small stressors, Justin and I are happy, and thats really all that matters :) well, heres the puppies.. hope you think theyre awesome.. we have yet to name them, theyre both girls... chloe is cute.. too close to zoe thougH...

Fire Season :(

life is just GOOOOD.. ive been out and about a little more with friends lately! It's been

such a good learning experience for me, in my relationship, bc i feel like i can miss him more,

and we have so much more to catch up on when we see each other! it's amazing! i love him, and I

dont exactly love missing him, but it makes me realize how important he is to me in my life..

I went Rollerskating with Sean and Jill and a few other aWESOME people this weekend..heres

some way rad pictures of Saturday nIGHT!

newlyweds, toosh grabbin.

the entire posse!

sillly faces

wanna race???

Holy Man! LA is on Fire! this past saturday, some fires broke out in the LA National forrest, but instead of being behind the Mountain backdrop, it was on the south side of the mountains! I was driving down the 605 in Long beach and you can s

ee the flames from the fires, as if it were only 5 miles away! So crazy! I guess the Flames got up to 80 ft! holy maccaronni!here's some pictures ive taken off LA times, or taken myself... its so sketchY!

definitely not so good!

Hello Fireman!

Future Justin of America :)

Yikes!

super cool, NOT!

well that's how bad california has looked lately..

kiss kiss...BIG KISS!!! <3>

new things are happening..

man can life just stress you out sometimes, its rediculous. I think this summer turned out to be something i didnt think it would be, full of work :( i didnt have as many long Car rides down PCH at 1 pm, i didnt go to the beach as often as i hoped to, i didnt ride my bike along the coast, okay, i lie, i went once.. i fell out of loops, i lost friends, i became stress. and man, do i HATE stress.. i cant live like this, i really cant! sometimes i feel so alone, like im the only one seeing things the way they are; im wrong obviously. so many things happened this summer, and i wanted to be a part of every single one of them. thats, of course, impossible. But i blamed it on one thing, and i cant blame it on that all the time, because its my fault too... done with that rant..

Kings of Leon are so soothing in such a different way. I guess its because it reminds me of times of old, times of sitting in a Ranger, driving down Clark, listening to Justin sing his lungs out to them. Of course he's still singing these tunes, but i dont get to enjoy them as often anymore. so these past few weeks have been rather interesting. I went to San Diego 2 weekends in a row, meanwhile Justin was in Mexico City, visiting his mission. Went with my friend Alyssa. The first weekend was seriously such a good time! the second weekend was rather bust than fun. But church time was way rad! met some San Diego cool kids :) it was fun! Ryan was way rad for letting us crash at his house and crash his parties for a minute.. no c-blocking for sure...hahah.. but here are some of my favorite pictures of down there... subtitled stories too...

sleepy in a burrito

ysa confrence
i miss you kiss kiss.
stranded..literally.

neon tree's (very awesome band)

with Ryan and Mitch at Rock-a-thon
Alyssa and I

there's a few, im pretty bad at posting on this thing.. well, today i went to the relief society dinner, caught up with some people, and got to know some others! i love socializing so much! i wish thats all i had to do sometimes, to be well off! haha.. just hang out and make people happy and stuff... at least thats my goal in life.. but i know there's certain people out there that can never be pleased, no matter what...

i really miss something, i dont know what it is, but i miss it... and i miss it a lot. i feel like something is misssing lately, and i think i know what i can be, but i swear i thought its been there through all of this throughtout the time.. i dont know, but a lot of praying will be done within the next few days, to figure out what's going on, so i can fix it..

i love you all... have a great night..

a new beginning.

Howdy Rowdy Crowdy! :) so here i am, i havent posted a blog in a long time. Things havent really changed, my mother is out of the hospital, she's actually in Las Vegas right now, how exciting. I made my quota this month, thanks a lot to the wonderful people i work with for helping me! Justin and I, still going on! Yup yup yup! Sean and Jill got married!! Im so happy that they were that happy, man, someday ill have my turn! until then, im gonna take my time with things! Ive been pretty crabby lately, im not sure what is causing it, but sometimes im just like, blah. like i need to spice things up a bit more. I havent been dancing in what seems like wayyy too long, thank goodness there's something spectacular going on this next week!The YSA Confrence is this next week, there's also this event called Hard Summer going on, its like a huge huge huge dance party with all sorts of amazing kinds of dancing going on! Im sad that Sean and all of the amazing people i used to once dance with will no longer be able to. Sean starts Dental school in a month, for a whole 3 years! its gonna be intense, and being married is gonna be fun for them though!Theyre so sillY! so work is good, im honestly kind of ready for a new adventure. I dont really like feeling sooo pressured to make sales goals during a sucky economy! it really sucks!

So next week Justin is going to Mexico, FOR A WHOLE WEEK! friday through NEXT sunday! what the heck am i gonna do? Have the time of my life thats for sure :) hahahah..jk... im gonna miss him for sure, he's

like my bff! He's so silly, he bought this new UFC Fighting game and its actually really fun! I wrote David Witt yesterday, i miss that kid. Seriously, i honestly have misplaced all of my friends out in the far ends of the earth. Vanessa and Ty are all up in Utah, Davids in Louisianna, Sean and Jill are gonna be living in Pasadena now, and Alyssa is in Canada. I need more local friends, its rediculous! Well, im off to bed. Have a great nighT!