Monday, May 24, 2010

summer time is here!

Finally some time to rest! This semester seemed so easy at school but trully it was one of the hardest because i REALLY devoted all i could to my classes and work. It feels so great to finally be done and i'm excited for the summer to bring great things! This past week was a hard week, i must admit i was so ready to just walk out of work and run to the beach. I've been soo ademant about going out and having a good time at dance parties that I wore myself out. I was sick, and exhausted and stressed out and to top things off add a little bit of drama to my life and BLAH. we all know how much i hate drama. X( but this weekend made up for every ounce of BAD that was last week. Friday, i went to disneyland with my dear friend Ryan D. it was a tripple D attack!!! DENNY DELAO @ DISNEY!! hahah... here's a sneak peak at some rad photos!






Such a fun and chill trip to disneyland. After a fun day, we headed up to the Glendale dance and had the MOST fun i've had in a while! I definitely enjoyed the company and getting to know new people! There were SO MANY ppl at this dance, it was just like New Years but probably better! So Aaron is no longer gonna DJ our Beach cities dances, which totally bums me out bc that was honestly one of the only reasons i went, was to be with my good ole friends. I guess i still find it semi hard finding that "group" of close friends i once had. Of course, theyre married now so i cant complain, theyve moved up in life and im so happy for them! :) I just miss their company! anywho. we all had a blast. it was at this crazy industrial site in South El Monte (ghetto) haha but they pulled it off SO well. good music, i was dancing all night sweating my heart out. heres a few pictures of the night..





That dance was too good for words. I love every second of being there, idk why. i just felt like i was having such a good time, running around dancing with different people, having a legit good time.

Saturday rolled around and i had to work all night but after wards i met up with Stacy and Diana who i used to hang out with in high school and we ended up going to our friend Jason's Bday party! So many people from high school were there it was so nice to see everyone and kind of catch up. People change so much after high school, some for such better, and some just stay the same :) but im glad the people i know are who they are, because theyre great no matter what! here's a picture of the hottie bday boys and us girls!


It was so rad to chill with these kids! Even though our lives have gone towards different paths and stuff, i still love em! :)

Lastly, this sunday my friend Cynarra decided to get baptized :) i met her about a month ago at a party, invited her to church, she came and just kept coming and loving it! I was honored to speak at her baptism about the holy ghost, you could just feel all the love in the room and really see how it has brought her happiness. its really awesome to see someone come unto christ and really want to change, to see that happen to her was amazing!here she is. right after her baptism with derek and i :)

you can see where all of my excitement comes from. of course sunday was just fantastic. I love going to church so much. It was the first sunday i had off in over 2 months so it was really nice to finally get to sit in and conversate with people about the gospel. Im so in love with it its insane.

I have so much on my mind lately its driving me insane.. ive found myself SO scared to fall for someone, because im so scared to open up and get it all back. if that makes sense. maybe im looking into the wrong face, because its breaking my heart slowly, but its happening. theres so much to feeling like you have to hide your feelings because of that crazy fear of rejection. im right there. ive been right there my whole life and i have no idea how to EVOLve.ive lost sight of how to take a risk when it comes to really liking someone, enough to want to tell them but im so afraid, im so afraid of what he'd do to my little bandaged heart.
I need to take more risks and grow up, because i've slowly started to realize that without taking that ONE simple risk, im going no where, that without taking a leap of faith, the things that coulve developed will be left unspoken, and thats far worse. Somehow, ive got to let it out and grow some. Its just a matter of time.... well im off to bed.

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