day 3.

So, I cannot lie to you, I made you a promise but last night i was having some major anxiety so i was not able to do my insanity BUT i can tell you that I did get some exercise in and although it wasn't insanity kind of exercise, it was exercise! So with that off my chest i can tell you that today I did insanity and I felt like i was going to DIE! lol. My anxiety hadn't worn off from last night, actually I've had anxiety consistently the past few weeks, i'm not one to use medication so i just do some relaxation exercises that I found on Kaiser's website that really have helped me out these past few days! ANYWHO, I realized today that not only is meditation and prayer an amazing stress reliever SO is exercising! It was nice to get out my frustrations at my own self for having anxiety and so forth so it felt good to get those emotions out, i also tend to randomly cry which helps too. Any who, today was such a progress for me, I now know what I can do to make me feel better and I love it! I've been watching my portions as well on food and have been substituting soda's for agua! I'm excited to be able to share this with you and I find comfort in knowing that I have your support! Thank you for all your kind motivations, this is only the beginning of the battle but here we go! :)

xoxo

Mayra

Day 1.

Like I promised you all, here is my first post! After a few hours of being lazy and cuddling with the cutest puppies in the world, i put on my sports bra and regained control! Statistically and on paper, my body does not show well what so ever. with a starting weight of a whopping 180 lbs (YIKES!) i am not at all content where i stand, sit or even lay for that matter! My hips are wider than a tow truck and i can go on and on about how my measurements just arent appealing, but i wont. I will start by saying that this is the end, this is the end of those pesky pounds sitting so unappealing on my hips, goodbye to the backfat that loves to make a cute top look like the ugliest shirt you've ever seen. farewell. i know that this progress will NOT be overnight,i will HAVE TO work hard, i will HAVE to stay motivated, but i made all of you a promise, so here i go trying to keep it! Insanity is not for the sane, i sit here sweating my face off just from the fit test that i so greatly did terrible at! Here are so pictures of me, large and in charge, but hopefully next time i post some pictures, 2 weeks from today, you will notice a difference...

xoxo

Mayra

the 60 day challenge

We all know that after graduating high school you are, at some point wether it be right after graduating or in your first years of college will gain the freshman 15!After high school i managed to keep my weight where i had been but shortly after I started my gain! I was pretty active at work and all but it was nothing compared to my high school softball days kind-of-active. After starting a new job after disney i had gained some MORE weight putting me up to the 170's which was so uncomfortable that I needed to change! I started a job where walking was part of my job, i'd say around 8  miles a day because it was just so much back and forth that i never ever sat down. That was in 2008 and along with a fun social life i managed to loose some extra pounds, putting me down to the 160's which was still well over 15 pounds over my high school days. I have never ever been a skinny girl, if you had all the women in my family line up and find a common denominator, it would be our BIG butts and wide hips! After getting settled into married life back in february and realizing that dancing every weekend would no longer be your form of entertainment or weighloss option anymore, along with getting a sedentary job i easily shot up to my first time, so extremely uncomfortable but i will tell you 180's. yikes. being 5'2 i should be down at the glorious 120's because its where my body is supposed to be. Therefore i have challenged myself to changing my ways of eating along with adding exercise to the mix. I had started insanity back in May to start working out but i only lasted 4 days. Then i restarted again in July hoping to be more motivated to get down the weight but after 7 days, my old self and laziness took over so i stopped. That week i had eaten healthy and worked out was great! I noticed some weight loss specifically in my face and I really liked that I was accomplishing the challenge i had made for myself! After that stint wore off i went back to my ugly ways and those glorious few pounds came back with a vengeance. I have decided to re-challenge myself  with insanity and getting down some pounds, i want to loose 20 pounds to start and after that I would love to aim for my high school weight of 135. That is probably the lightest i've ever been so i'll aim for that! I want to be able to look in the mirror and feel like i look good, i don't want to feel like a slob any more. I want to be able to have some sort of control of my own body! So my challenge begins tomorrow, i have eaten the last of my cookies and drank the last of my cocoa-cola! I will also do the best I can to write about my progress every monday wednesday and friday! I will keep a diary of my weightloss so i can see the overall progress and post pictures every friday! I CAN do this! I WILL achieve this challenge! I hope that those of you reading this, you few you, will join me in a challenge of your own, to aim for a goal and try your hardest to achieve it! Today i sit here, with a bowl of grapes by my side, my three gorgeous nephews and my husband making you this promise that i will try with all my heart! 


here are some blast from the past pictures... along with some recent fat girl pictures ;)

 

                                        

With love,

Mayra

Thankful.

This week has been pretty tough on me, somehow my anxiety decided to creep up on me and take me back a step in control. Thankfully i have an amazing husband and some great listeners at work that let me talk about how i feel and make be feel better! While I hate having anxiety and the feeling that takes over, it definitely makes me thankful for having the gospel in my life. One of the most important things in my world is my belief in Jesus Christ. This past week i've been reading over at http://presleyfam.blogspot.com, they sadly lost their adorable boy this past week. I cannot express the sadness i feel for them, but at the same time It is so comforting to know they'll all be together again some day. I'm so thankful for the knowledge that I have. I have been telling my husband that we need to find time in our opposite work schedule to head to the Temple. I miss going to the Temple, its been about 2 months since we've gone so to me its too long! I feel like when you have the opportunity to help someone, do it. Take the chance and make your time worth it! At work lately i've noticed that the way you are with people determines the way they are with you. Maybe its my Disney training but i've always felt like i have to be extra polite to people, and being at a bank, not all personalities are like mine so it can be difficult to get people happy to come into the bank. One of the things i love to hear from my customers say is "muy amable" in spanish, basically stating that you've been really nice, but in a very humble and sweet way! It makes my day every time i hear a customer say that and it makes me feel like i'm making a difference. Although we are not allowed or not really advised to talk about religion at work, sometimes inbetween transactions and conversations pop up we discuss what we do on our free time. The other day I helped this man who had taken some missionary lessons and had attended some church meetings before, He had nothing but great things to say about the church but he wasn't baptized and he said he still had to decided where he stood. He went on to say that his girlfriend doesn't believe in God or religion at all. It made me really thing about how lucky I was to find someone who has the same faith as me, the same beliefs as I do and the same will to do good in the world.I'm so thankful for the life i've been blessed with, words could never describe how peaceful it is to have my loving heavenly father to pray to and to console me in times of need. I'm so thankful for adversities, because without them, i wouldn't enjoy the goods as much as i do!

With love, 

Mayra S

Six Sweet Months.

Well, the time has flown by SO quickly! I cannot believe that this month marks our halfway point of our first year of marriage! We have had some laughs, some cries, and everything any couple goes through! My favorite part of marriage is always having him here, always having him by my side! building our lives together and getting through things! I love the fact, in all honesty i do, that we are not perfect. i love the fact that we have had our challenging times, our fights but we have gotten through them. That is my absolute favorite! I love the bond we have, no one at all knows me better than my husband does, and no one knows him better than I do. This past weekend we went out to Las Vegas with my family to just get away for the weekend! We had a good time just walking down memory lane, we went to Vegas for our honeymoon so we just revisited some places we had gone through!

My mom and dad were there as well so it was really nice to just have a good time with the people I love most! 

The last few months have been really well with work! :) My job is going great, not so much pressure and i feel like i'm really growing a fun kind of bond with my co-workers! We're pretty silly sometimes!

They've even started training me so i can someday become a lead! Wahoo that makes me so excited because I love moving up within a company! Anywho, life is going really well! Mona is really loving his job, i'm really happy that he's happy! We have pretty awesome callings at church so i'm having a blast working with the young women in our ward and he's the secretary in the EQ! 

I've been trying to get into sewing, i mad a few skirts a while back but i have yet to tackle making a dress and i have this really adorable polk a dot print that i'd love to make into a dress! Anyone have any dress pattern ideas? I need modest, cute, versatile and comfy!

Anywho, that is all... hopefully next time i write i'll have some fun news to share :) 

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Mrs. Stevenson